Growing up I think it is safe to say that the majority of us are dreamers. When we are young we think about all the different careers we could have or who we want to be. Tell me, out of all those dreams, which ones have you achieved?
I remember gowing through grade school being interested in so many different things; Horses, cats, Panda Bears, Killer Whales, singing, acting… the list goes on. The older I got, the more detailed these interests became.
I believe it was around middle school that I wanted to be a marine biologist. It could’ve been that I watched Free Willy one too many times, but I had a genuine interest in that career. Okay, so maybe it wasn’t completely genuine. There were parts of that job that I really wasn’t wanting to deal with. For example, gutting fish. I have been fishing many times, however gutting a fish was my dad’s job. It took me a few years of fishing to just get used to baiting smelt to fish for sturgeon on the Columbia River. Also, the smell really bugged me. The main thing was that I wanted to work with Killer Whales. Because that entailed the above duties, I quickly grew out of that phase.
It wasn’t long after that I thought about another line of work. “What about astronomy?” Well… what about it? I enjoy looking at the stars and glimpse the vast expanse of our universe. There wasn’t much about this job that I would dislike, although the college career path did seem a bit daunting. Although I never became an astronomer, it his a hobby and on clear nights I will set out my telescope and gaze at the great beyond. Too cheesy right?
Next came being a storm chaser. Oh the thrill of danger awaiting the next on coming storm, hoping to release Dorothy into the sky to collect data… oh wait, that’s Twister. It is what got me interested in it. In fact, during High School there was a time where we had to job shadow someone in the career we were wanting to go into. I chose to job shadow Katy Brown – Meteorologist of NW Channel 2 news KATU. I don’t remember much about the shadow, aside from getting to tour the studio and see where the “magic” happened.
This dream did not last for long. It wasn’t until my Sophomore year in High School with my Creative Writing teacher Mr. Mendenhall, that I even thought about writing. I mean I wrote small stories before this, but didn’t have a true connection with it. When I took that class and submitted my first story (a horror story about a young girl who sees herself after she dies), Mr. Mendenhall told me I had potential. I kept writing, but never thought about it as a career.
From the beginning of my grade school years I loved to sing and act. I was in many church and school productions, and sang a solo almost every year. This is what I wanted to do the rest of my life. I’m not sure exactly how old I was (i’d have to ask my parents again) but there was a time where my family and I would go eat at Calamity Janes. Every Wednesday and Friday they would have someone come and perform. It was all country music and I had memorized almost every country song on the station at that time. One day we were there and the guy sang “The Auctioneer” while I sang along at my table. He walked by, hearing me, and so did the owner of the restaurant. During the break they asked me if I would like to sing with them or on my own for a little on one of those days. I really wanted to do it, but my Dad thought it would be best for me to turn it down. Was that the best move? I don’t know and I’m not going to live a life full of regrets because of it. However I never stopped dreaming of that. Still haven’t. I don’t want to be famous. I just want to share it with others.
I now write. Yep… I am writing right now. This is what I ended up doing and I could not be happier. I love it. It frees me! Good or not, I enjoy doing it and I’m not going to stop. So what if I didn’t become a Marine Biologist, Astronomer, Meteorologist, Actress or Singer! That didn’t stop me from enjoying bits and pieces of each of those. I love Killer Whales, looking at the stars, watching storms roll in, act and sing.
Here’s the thing, just because the dreams you once had are not what you have today, does not mean that they did not make you who you are today. Remember… whatever you do, don’t stop dreaming or wishing!